emberossing | for wauuu

"How could I not?" it's quiet, laced almost with wonder, but then Victor moves and...

He gets it, immediately, what it is that Victor is showing him, and his breath stutters and catches and then he forgets to breathe entirely for a moment. His entire world is the path of Victor's hands along his own body, pushing into his hair, and the pressure around his cock is incredible, but it's nothing next to this, to getting to see this.

He still doesn't know why it is that Victor is showing him this, letting him in--

The thought's derailed, doesn't spiral, and his body screams for air, so he's panting all of a sudden instead, which is probably a little ridiculous, but he doesn't care. But it's not just that Victor looks like this. It's not just that Victor's letting him see him in a way he doesn't let other people see.

Yuuri did this.

Yuuri is doing this.

This isn't something posed or thought up with photoshoot storyboards or designed by someone with an agenda to show the world something specific. This is Yuuri's.

He's gripping Victor's hips suddenly, without a real thought of moving, not really taking control of the pace so much as pulling him harder down on him every time he pushes up.

"Touch yourself," the words spill out of him, and he immediately wants to backpedal because that's definitely too much, has to be too pushy, but Victor sinks back down over him just then and there aren't any words anymore for a second, so the command just lingers in the air for a moment too long to take it back, to pretend like he didn't mean it.

There is an intense thrill for Victor to watch Yuuri watch him. The man's face is so enamored and amazed and even a little terrified, like Yuuri wasn't sure this is something he should be allowed to see. Yet here Victor is, showing and giving to the man, holding nothing back. Victor really got off on that, usually so calculated with his presentation, to be truly exposed in front of someone else in all regards. He wasn't the type to show vulnerability, not outside of performance. Even on the ice it was only a glimpse of fragile melancholy, never the whole of him laid bare. Knocking the air out of Yuuri is about the response he expected to get and he nearly shivers when the man finally catches himself and starts panting for lost breathe.

He actually shivers once Yuuri makes his demand. A full body quiver, starting from his shoulders and traveling down to his tailbone, a reaction of sudden desire. This is punctuated by a tightening of his thigh muscles and ass as he's driven up into. With how utterly lost Yuuri looked, Victor really wasn't expecting such a sexually charged request. He obeys immediately, almost fumbling, grabbing tight at the base of his own cock. His fist strokes long and slow, biting his own lip desperately, like he might be worried this is too much himself and is pushing a boundary of his own. This is a perfect storm of What Works For Him and coming abruptly, again, isn't something he wants. So he's cautious, not wanting to go over the edge he's on, wanting desperately to hold out longer. His adam's apples bobs as he swallows wetly and gasps out, mouth lulling open.

"Y, yes, Yuuri,"

He was already trying to find the air to take it back, to say he didn't mean to say something like that, that Victor doesn't have to. But then he's shuddering like that, and Yuuri can't help but moan at the way his muscles tighten around him and then Victor is actually, honest-to-god, doing what he told him to and he nearly can't even do it in his haste.

Every time Yuuri thinks that he can't sink deeper into this, that he's at least used to how Victor makes him feel, he goes and sets another record. Yuuri's almost whimpering, watching him skirt the edge, or at least look like he is, biting his lip and struggling for air. His fingers are going to leave bruises, small ones, where they're clenched on Victor's hips, and he feels his own struggle to keep going wash over him, the way Victor says his name, says yes to him.

He keens and it's a near thing, but he hangs on by his fingertips and by grace of already having come twice and keeps going, instead, movements turning rougher.

There's only one reason to hold back now and it's to make this feeling last. This feeling of being right there, just waiting to spill over, knowing the moment of no return was quick approaching but staving it off ever so slightly. His fingers grip tight to his cock, prostate flaring so much that the contact of his hand needed to hold him back not work him up. Yuuri doesn't look far off and the frantic increase in pace is telling. Victor's thighs move fast and hard, meeting Yuuri's dick with a loud slap of skin. He's yelling the younger man's name loud and lewd, like he's trying to be heard by the floor above (and probably is).

"I, I'm close..! Yuuri! Yuuri, come, I-I want you to-- I'm going to--"

He loves this. He's got no idea what strange alchemy is making this possible, where he's both so far out of his head that there's no room for fear and where Victor's seen him at his absolute, dead bottom worst and still wants to take him there. He's still in wonder at all of it, maybe always will be. It's completely exhilarating and he's swept up in it.

"Please. Please... god... Please, Victor, please," he's laughing, just a little, less an actual laugh and more just a desperate, hysterical edge to his words, too much to hold under his skin. He doesn't know what he's begging for, even, with both of them barely hanging on like this, just knows that he wants more, more of this, more of Victor, more of seeing Victor like this and knowing...

It's because of him. He's doing this. Him. Him. Victor's head's all but lolling on his shoulders and he looks frantic, undone and he did that. He did that. He did that.

He digs his hands into Victor's skin and all but screams his way through another orgasm, back bowed and head thrown back on the pillow, as unselfconscious as Victor had been just a few moments before.

The begging really does Victor in, on the emotional front. Yuuri coming inside him again, filling him when he already felt so full, finishes him off physically. His own orgasm is happening without any more delay, hand unclasping his own cock. His release is in part on himself and on Yuuri, cock pumping three thick, white ropes of semen. His moan is deep and feral beneath the sound of Yuuri crying out, teeth grit before his jaw slacks again. All of him slacks, like he got unplugged, which is sort of what he feels like. His chest bobs with exertion, arms flat at his side's and butt sitting heavy in Yuuri's lap. There's some intense satisfaction in the feeling of Yuuri's softening cock still inside him.

He looks from Yuuri, where his eyes had been glued the whole time, up at the ceiling. Blue eyes are glassy like he's looking for an answer in the wall paper how did he find someone who makes him feel this good and how does he keep him?. There is, of course, no answer to be found and he snaps out of that within a second. There's a deep want to drink in Yuuri's expression, hoping it's as blissful as he was feeling.

"Yuuri..?" He's not quite sure what he's questioning, maybe he's just curious, maybe he just wants to hear that Yuuri's okay and that scream wasn't actually terror. Maybe he just wanted to say Yuuri's name again and his voice lilted upward at the end entirely on accident. Victor sure isn't certain, anymore, brain much too foggy.

It takes Yuuri a minute to come back to himself, blink his eyes fully back open again, and then a bit longer to focus them. Fucked incoherent is a good look on him, particularly painted in Victor's cum. He keeps reaching new levels of looking relaxed and open, afterwards, dazed.

"Victor," he's barely even aware he's spoken, that's how automatic the response to his name is, and Victor's name comes out rough around the edges from all the noise he's been making, but laced heavy in wonder, still, like even unspooled and sated, he can't quite believe this is real.

Before, though, there was an edge to that-- that it couldn't be real because he didn't deserve it, because he is who he is, not someone worthy to have it. Now, it's an almost giddy disbelief, so much of everything he's ever wanted that he can't wrap his head around it. He reaches up and pushes Victor's hair out of his eyes and the gesture is achingly tender-- all the moreso after the bruises his fingers are leaving behind.

When Yuuri reaches for his hair, brushing his messy bangs to one side, Victor reaches up to meet him. His long, porcelain white fingers cradle Yuuri's hand and he pushes his face into it, craving the affectionate touch like it's water in a desert. Everything barren feels like it's ready to bloom and Victor's heart kind of hurts with attachment. He shouldn't be falling so completely for Yuuri so rapidly, but he's hitting maximum velocity, not knowing when he's going to hit rock bottom. This isn't what he does, he doesn't fall in love with people, they have fun together and they go away. He goes back to what he knows and that's skating. He's afraid all he's going to return to on the ice now is pining.

"Ты нужна мне всё больше... и больше," he said it before and it stood repeating, even if just for Victor's sake.

Before, there was enough happening that the Russian was just a smear of syllables, but now, he recognizes enough to know that it's a sentence, something directed at him. He doesn't realize it's the same thing he said before, nor does he know enough Russian to even take a guess but there's something about the tone.

"That's pretty," his voice is still frayed around the edges. He likes the way it sounds, like he can hear Victor, what they've been doing, in himself. He wants to ask what it means, but he also doesn't-- it sounds intimate, private, and something about that makes his chest warm.

He runs his thumb over Victor's lower lip and, even though they've been kissing and Victor's mouth's been all over him, it's the first time he's deliberately touched his face when it wasn't to pull him in for more kissing. Everything feels open, raw, but at least right now, none of that feels scary or uncomfortable. Everything is just... quiet. Calm.

The thumb to his lip gets a playful kiss, Victor smiling as his shoulders tense upward, like he saw something too cute to hide the reaction. He's also giddy, heart warm, swollen up in his chest like it might burst from excitement. His hands stays on Yuuri's and he'll swivel his head some, pressing a romantically slow kiss to the soft of the man's wrist. Striking blue eyes travel down Yuuri's forearm until they reach and lock lidded gazes. The expression really does look like he could say I love you at any moment and it would match. He won't, Victor has good enough judgement to know, even in his fogginess that that would be TOO MUCH. Still, he can look it, he can express it without saying it.

"I'll tell you what it means, someday," he'll tease, wanting to leave Yuuri room for wonder and intrigue. Don't get sick of him, before he can tell the secret.

Yuuri shivers a little and his eyes go even softer at the kiss, returning that look. Unlike Victor, who knows the words and doesn't want to say them, Yuuri doesn't have a name yet for the feeling settling in his chest. Oh, he knows he loves Victor, but he loves him the way that he's loved him since before he could even really skate. That doesn't feel like this. This is new.

He wants to tell Victor he doesn't have to tell him, but something about the tone tells him that Victor's saying more there than just the words, though he can't pick up on what. Still, he grins instead, bright and open,

"Okay. Don't forget."

He's not sure what to do, now, really just wants to sit right here, in this moment, forever. So he doesn't say anything else right away, just strokes Victor's face some more, marvels all over again that he gets to, that he gets any of this.

"I won't..." Victor will promise, his eyes fluttering shut at the touch. He feels so damn at ease, such comfort emotionally, and satisfaction in every other way. That is, until he shifts a bit and his face goes pink to remember he still had Yuuri inside of him. He'll chuckle quietly, shivering somewhat to slide the man's cock from him, all wet and soft. There's a considerable amount of lube and cum slipping down his thighs, now. It's equal parts sexy and embarrassing, so he'll look to Yuuri with a crooked smile.

"...now let's have that bath," he'll pat Yuuri's shoulders, swinging his legs off the man, a bit wobbly from sensation, muscles flaring in small bursts all the way down to his ankles.

Yuuri makes a little noise when Victor lifts up and he slides out of him, all aftershocks and wet sliding. It draws his brain out of the clouds and back down to hear and now, like a switch flipping from everything being emotional and esoteric to remembering he has a body and they're both covered in each other's fluids and, weirdly (at least to him), it's just as good. He gets the air punched out of him just as much as he did a minute ago with Victor all sweet and beaming love straight at him, when Victor shifts and he can see the wetness between his thighs.

He did that.

He wants to do that all over again right now, suddenly.

Endurance and youth aside, that's a bit much, even for him, obviously, but it flickers hot across his face for a moment right before Victor suggests the bath. He agrees with a nod right away, though he looks a little hesitant about trying to actually make it down to the foot or side of the bed to put his feet on the ground. Muscles are starting to protest and fatigue is starting to set in. Still, he knows all of that will be better in the heat of the water. He can't help but laugh, though,

"Now I'm the one who's not sure if I can make it there," on a good day, no problem, but he's still pre-exhausted from everything else that's been happening. Even so, he starts at least trying to head that way.

"Lean on me, I'll lean on you," Victor laughs, grinning wide to slide his arm around Yuuri's back, encouraging the man to do the same to him. Three legged race style, he'll hoist up with Yuuri, laughing at how he needs to slouch to be equal with the shorter man. It's a goofy, playful walk to the bathroom, but it's not far. It's a beautiful space, all dark cozy tones and luxury finish, including the bowl-like tube that was the centerpiece. It's at least easy to step into and Victor sinks into the cold space with a bit of regret, flipping on the water to start filling it up with warm water. He'll eyes up to Yuuri with a cutely pleading expression.

"Could you grab me a washcloth, please?" he'll point to the counter, not far away but also not wanting to stand up again, especially not that warm water was cresting over his legs as the tub filled up.

Yuuri fumbles and laughs the whole way to the bathroom, a world away from earlier today when he was jumpy just having Victor touch him in the sauna. He does almost send them to the floor more than once, though, just from his legs being a little unsteady.

It still weirds him out a little bit, that not everyone in the world showers off before they get in the tub, but he's lived in America long enough to know that's pretty normal there at least, so it doesn't surprise him too much here. Victor's heart-meltingly cute asking for a washcloth as he gets in the tub and Yuuri can't help but smile, warm and sweet, to that, fond, before he turns to get it. He moves some towels closer, too, because he's already cold and knows getting out's going to be even harder than waiting for the water to warm up and fill.

There's a moment of consideration, but the glasses are just going to get in the way in the bath, so they're folded on top of the towels. He probably would have taken them off at some point while they were having sex, except that he first didn't want to not be able to see everything in perfect clarity and then he forgot they existed in the middle there.

He hesitates a moment before getting in, even though he's starting to get uncomfortably cold, now, but it's not from a lack of wanting to get in or nervousness. Even ever so slightly blurry around the edges, Victor is gorgeous leaning back in the tub and he's kind of forgotten how to move. Or breathe. Or anything.

Reaching fingers toward Yuuri, he'll take the washcloth and then reach again to take the man's hand. Steadying Yuuri, but also encouraging him, to enter the bath with him. There was lots of room to stretch out, but Victor scoots in close, sitting right beside Yuuri. He lets out a long, relieved sigh and settled down into the ever increasing water. His head falling to the side to lean onto Yuuri's shoulder.

"I'm exhausted! You're really energetic, I'm a little afraid of how you'll be tomorrow with more rest," he laughs, gentle in his teasing, "you'll go easy on me, right?"

Once Victor's encouraged him into motion, he doesn't stop again, sinking down into the bath with a low, pleased sigh, legs and thighs already feeling the initial effects of the warmth. It's absolutely heavenly and it's even more so when Victor leans his head onto his shoulder and his heart does that thing where it feels so much bigger than his chest that it's a little painful. He winds an arm around him, tugging him in more without really thinking about it.

"Shouldn't I be asking you that?" just kind of slips out while his brain is busy processing that Victor's laying his head on his shoulder-- and is that a joke about Victor fucking him because it sure sounds like one. He flushes and kind of tries to backpedal from that, but it's not very effective, all told, because what comes out is,

"You... do remember you're the one who pushed to go again, right?" his tone's still teasing back, though, not upset in the slightest, "I would have been fine with the bath earlier but someone--" he cuts off suddenly, red as a tomato, because he was about to say something about how Victor couldn't keep his hands off him, and it's just... a little too much for him to process and actually get out of his mouth.

Baby steps on getting him to talk dirty. Stop and go.

The teasing back gets a brimming smile, before Victor adjusts. His chin rests on the man's shoulder now, lips puffy red and shiny with the steam pouring up from the water around them. Blue eyes are lidded, pale eyelashes fluttering just a bit. He plays along, flirtatious as ever.

"Someone was too irresistible," he'll claim, lips pushing together in a wry pout, "how could I have self control with you in my bed? That's expecting too much of your host!"

"So you're afraid that I won't go easy on you by... being more irresistible?" he wrinkles his nose a little at the strange bit of logic. "I can't say that I know what I'm doing that makes me that desirable, but you are stuck with me in your bed a few more days, so I guess you'll either have to learn some self-control, or be exhausted," it's pointed out very logically, but then he smirks, relaxed enough to joke,

"Unless I'm sleeping on the couch?"

It's a joke, but it costs him something to say it, because it's not outside of the realm of possibilities and his brain is still trying to remind him that this isn't the kind of thing that happens to people like him. Still, he's also pretty sure he's not sleeping on the couch.

"I think I'll accept being exhausted," Victor chuckles, kissing Yuuri's shoulder before giving him that heart shaped grin, "I very much want you in my bed. I'll be better with the temptation the more tired I am." Because, well, more difficult to get all riled up when he can barely move!

Look, even if all of this turns out to be an ill-advised set of decisions in a bad circumstance, he is going to frame that in his head somewhere and hang it where he can see it.

I very much want you in my bed.

He shivers, even in the rising warm water and he's tugging Victor in for a kiss that he means to be sweet, but while it doesn't quite get to the point of being dirty, does turn out to be a bit more passionate than he was intending. When he pulls back he's got the same sweetly dazed sort of look he always does a second after Victor kisses him, but then he seems to realize what just happened and he ducks his head down against Victor's shoulder. He's not shy, though, he's laughing.

"Okay, okay, point taken." Victor hasn't had a chance to say anything yet, but it's a pretty clear example of exactly what he's meaning by "going easy on him".

"I don't really know if I can stop though," he adds a moment later, muffled.

It's a very close call that Victor doesn't go exactly against his own words and push for another heated, likely mood shifting kiss. Escalating again, he could probably manage, much as he complained he was tired. Yuuri was still the day after both an emotionally exhausting day and a hangover. Victor reminds himself to be good and return the kiss without pushing for more, more, more. He's so greedy, he wants and wants, pursuing desires to the end. Here, this? He doesn't want to know there's an end, even if he can see it, in Yuuri getting on a plane back to Detroit. He wants to insure he gets that invite to the hotspring, doesn't scare or overwhelm Yuuri out of reciprocating his feelings.

So, Yuuri pulling away gets a soft, almost dizzy looking nod. Sure, he agrees... To whatever they were talking about, he got very distracted. The mumble catches his attention, Victor drawing a pointed finger to trace a line across the man's chin.

"I would be very disappointed if you stopped," he'll coo, "we're just-- oops!" He'll yelp a bit, seeing the water nearing overflow. Seems he really wasn't paying attention... A quick stretch of long limbs away from Yuuri and he'll turn the stream off. Actually, he'll just open the drain a bit, too, not wanting the precariously high water tipping over the sides. While he's fussing, he's all beautiful, shapely back and butt muscles faced toward Yuuri.

Yuuri's used to more dogged pursuit of everything the world doesn't seem to want him to have. He's got a good foundation, better than a lot of people, and he knows that, but every day he feels like he's getting up and going to the ice to fight. He has to get better. He has to prove himself. Everything is hard won, every inch feels conquered, a war fought out across his life because he can't imagine being anywhere other than the ice, but none of it comes easily.

And then there's this. He's spent his whole life fighting just to skate on the same ice as Victor and then he did and he failed and... here he is, laughing while Victor struggles with the water, running his eyes down his back. He's not used to things being given to him, handed out with what feels like no effort on his part on a silver platter. He's not used to being invited to take as much as he wants, doesn't know how to reach out when it's not a struggle.

But he's every bit as greedy as Victor is.

He shifts a little bit and Victor's going to scoot back from fixing the water to find that he's nearly in Yuuri's lap, leaning on him instead of his bit of the wall of the tub, which lets Yuuri get his arms around him more, which he suddenly very much wants to do.

"You're beautiful," it's not really what he was meaning to say, too intimate, maybe, but it's what comes out and, for once, he doesn't backpedal at all, because Victor is, even moreso in his arms.

Scooting back thoughtlessly, Victor makes a startled hiccup of a noise when he finds himself against Yuuri. He nearly apologized, but then Yuuri's arms are around him and he can tell it was no mistake. Adaptable in an instant, he sinks into Yuuri's embrace with a pleased sigh, wistful even. He snuggles his face into Yuuri chest, trying to listen to his heartbeat, but then he's being called beautiful. The coziness of the moment ends up shooting the moon passed comfort and Victor practically whimpers.

"Yuuuuri...." A gentle huff, Victor snuggling in more, like he can't get enough, "... This is really romantic, don't you think?" The tone implies do you mean it to be? and also a level of... Disappointment, if the romance is somehow unintentional.

Everything just clicks into place, the way Victor snuggles down into his arms. Yuuri catches his breath, hand coming up to card through his hair and everything is so perfect and things flush hot and it's sexual but it's also not, something else, but there's that feeling again-- greedy, more, everything-- and he doesn't understand how he can still feel suddenly like he could do anything, when he knows he's so exhausted they could barely make it into the tub, but he just wants everything about Victor so much...

And then he freezes.

Because that tone is supposed to be hesitant and reaching, but all he hears is the hesitance. He's still in a place where he can't really run away like he might otherwise be inclined to do, so Victor at least doesn't get the wrong impression from that. And there's maybe long enough of a pause for Victor to get worried, but probably not quite long enough of one for him to do very much about it before Yuuri manages,

"Is that... I mean... I've never done this... I..." okay, deep breaths Yuuri, you're an adult who's trapped in a foreign country and who's just had the best and worst days of your life side by side without exploding and you can use your people words, "Do you want me to stop?" because that's the real question.

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