He leans back against Victor immediately when he puts his arms around him like that (though the kiss gets a little shiver instead, the good kind) and he has a moment of vertigo that has nothing to do with the sex part of this and everything to do with all of the rest of it-- that he's been letting Victor comfort him, when that's so hard won from literally everyone else in his life and always has been. Is that something about Victor? Is it something about how helpless he actually is right now and that it's easier to accept help when it's needed? Is it something about hitting absolute bottom? He has no idea. He just knows Victor's pulling things out of him he didn't know existed and he's finding he likes most of them.

"Okay," he manages, fighting for words again, "Show me." It's supposed to be a question and it doesn't come out imperious enough to be a command... but it also doesn't come out like a question, either.